Melissa Rauch knows the heartbreak of miscarriage. Now, she’s sharing her story in hopes of encouraging those enduring similar experiences.
The Big Bang Theory star announced her pregnancy in a letter published by Glamour Tuesday, writing that although she is “extremely overjoyed,” she’s still “completely terrified” of suffering another miscarriage.
She wrote that because hearing others’ pregnancy announcements (she’s due this fall, according to Glamour) was so hard after her loss, she wanted to share “the struggle it took for [her] to get here.”
“The miscarriage I experienced was one of the most profound sorrows I have ever felt in my life,” wrote Rauch, 37. “It kickstarted a primal depression that lingered in me.”
In the essay, she explained the internal pressure she felt to overcome her sadness and urged women enduring the same struggle to treat themselves with kindness.
“Our pain is something to be worked through until it isn’t anymore,” Rauch wrote.
Rauch also shared that beyond the deep sorrow, she also dealt with a hormone imbalance she never expected. One night, she broke out in tears while watching House Hunters International
“Nothing in particular set it off,” she wrote, adding that although she wasn’t aware at the time, there are remedies available for overcoming the hormonal aspect of a miscarriage.
“The sadness on its own is hard enough,” Rauch said.
She also called for more conversation around miscarriage and infertility.
“Ideally, the more we talk about this issue, the more we can chip away at the unnecessary stigma around it, with the end result being that those of us struggling with loss and infertility will feel less alone,” Rauch wrote.
Rauch plays Dr. Bernadette Rostenkowski-Wolowitz on The Big Bang Theory, which returns on CBS Sept. 25.